GIRLS....i need girl help and its about peer pressure and race issues and xxx?

Ok so I'm 145 pounds but u can't tell and ppl say I look 130 cuz I'm soo damn skiinny with na big ***(I'm halfblack with all genes from my blackmom) I've been a cheerleader for 9 years. So well all my friends have big ands I'm a 36 a:( I get jelous and I feel weird around themnand I got made fun of by peaple about my itty tiity s, all women in my family hve big ...why not me? I've been called blackbarbie and stuff and I was thinking to look alil more perfect I wanna get surgery and big s ( I'm a young teen) so I can look better and cuz I'm very materialistic and I sadly sometimes have the lightskinned blackbarbie mentality on how I have to look pretty(my grandma forced that on me growing up) also everyone I no is having or fooled around but me:(. Also people complain I need to stop a sneekling around with oldermen ..well guys my age don't like me so I noticed cause I look older than I am oldermen give me thew time a day and I feel good, iv gotten offers to get paid to lose my virginity but I can't do it...I feel like a nprude(I wanna wait till I'm older and more mature and inlove like 17 and up...not now....what's wrong with me?